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Shame, TMI Tuesday 20th June 2017

SHAMEHow much can you bear?

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Shame on TMI Tuesday

Tell us a sexual thing/fantasy you would never want your friends to know you like or have done?

As far as most of my friends are concerned I wouldn’t like them to know that I get a kick out of bondage. Also one activity I have kept pretty quiet about over the years is that I once had the “golden shower” experience. You will be able to read about it sometime over the next few months on my sister blog which looks back 20 years ago to precisely the golden era. My friends would be horrified if I ever told them about that.  A couple of them even seemed shocked that I have enjoyed anal sex in the past.

 

Has anyone ever found an item of sexy underwear, a sex toy or perhaps a picture on your phone that embarrassed you?

When I was about 17 I was still living with my Mum. I used to often take my diary in the bathroom with me to write or read after I had bathed. One time I discovered that I had left it in there, in full view, for a whole day. I felt very embarrassed as even at that age my diaries were very explicit.  I was involved in my first sexual relationship. My boyfriend was very explorative where sex was concerned and the thought that my Mum or step father may have read about our exploits horrified me. I think I walked around blushing for the following week!

 

Do you have any fantasies you could never go through with because you think you would feel ashamed?

That’s a difficult one. I often fantasise about a MMF threesome but have not investigated it further – not because I may feel ashamed but because I am not sure in reality if the experience would be what I am after from sexual pleasure.

 

Have you ever felt shame after a sexual experience?

Yes, too often in the past. Let’s just say I was sexualised early in life and that seemed to mar many of my sexual relationships. After a short while, into a relationship, I would just start feeling dirty after any sex really. This reaction led to me feeling ashamed. I will be discussing this over on Before May Mattered, as at that time I began to recognise a pattern in my sexual behaviour and began to look for answers. It’s been a long haul though.

Incidentally I never felt any shame regarding the golden showers!

 

Bonus:  Share a recent non-sexual moment of SHAME

I really can’t think of any concrete recent moments of shame. Sometimes I can be pretty moody and because of that can behave badly at home. I have done that more than once over the last month. Afterwards I often feel a little embarrassed – I think 😉

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Upfront and Personal – TMI Tuesday 13th June 2017

Upfront and Personal

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Upfront and Personal on TMI Tuesday

 

Would you take a course in advanced sex positions? Why?

That is an odd question. It has put all sorts of visuals into my head –  a room full of people trying to copy a position the teachers are demonstrating. I don’t think I would be interested in a course of advanced sexual positions. I simply like to get into a position that feels good or right at the time.

 

Did you orgasm?”
Women: Have you been asked this?

Continue reading Upfront and Personal – TMI Tuesday 13th June 2017

Sexual Behaviour is a Choice

 

Sexual Behaviour is a choice
Sexual Behaviour is a matter of choice

Over on my sister blog, Before May Mattered, I have just posted the next diary instalment. These diaries are real. They were written some 20 years ago, knowing a lot less than I do now. In some ways my thoughts and ideas were already formed. For instance, I was cynical about the way the world operated regarding politics and the reasons for war. Even at such a young age I was correct where these beliefs were concerned. Continue reading Sexual Behaviour is simply a matter of Choice – Living Forwards

Smells of Men. The Past Smells of Men. Before May Mattered

 

The Past Smells of Men

Past smells of men
Past smells of men

 

The sense of smell is an amazing thing.  I have always known it is one of my strongest senses and on occasions, where men are concerned, it has overridden my moral judgement. I believe some perfumes/colognes are laced with artificial pheromones which could be a reason for choosing to wear them. Personally I think there is nothing like the natural smell of a clean guy. Everybody has their own unique odour, which is masked by perfumes. Often it will be sometime before you actually know what your new lover really smells like. Continue reading Smells of Men. The Past Smells of Men. Before May Mattered

Social Norms, times keep-a-changing’ on TMI Tuesday

Social Norms

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Does your workplace have a “casual Friday” or a day when you can dress down or out of uniform?

I work from home so every day is a casual dress day. I have been known to dress up during the later part of the day – pencil skirt, heels, stockings, black bra and tight white blouse. You get the picture. Pleases my man… Continue reading Social Norms, times keep-a-changing’ on TMI Tuesday

To Hell with Love its This or That? On TMI Tuesday 11th April 2017

To Hell With Love Its This or That?

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To HELL with LOVE

To Hell with Love its This or That on TMI Tuesday

Lights on or off?

Lights on for sure – I love seeing my mans body. I want to see his cock in all states of arousal. I want to see the pure sexual intensity he will have in his eyes. All these things are paramount in contributing to my sexual excitement.

Slow teasing or getting right to business?

Continue reading To Hell with Love its This or That? On TMI Tuesday 11th April 2017

Tell it like it is on TMI Tuesday 4th April 2017

TMI Tuesday

TMI Tuesday – Tell It Like It Is.

TMI Tuesday – Elaborate on each in greater than 20 words but no more than 100 words.

Sex is _____ .

Sex is vital to my life. When I was younger I had problems with sex as I found it difficult to face up to what kind of sex I like. From the moment I did I felt more fulfilled and true to myself. Having regular sex helps keep you happy, healthy and strengthens your relationship with your partner. To achieve a good sex life – communication is key…

TMI Tuesday

Love is _____ .

Continue reading Tell it like it is on TMI Tuesday 4th April 2017

Sexy it is! On Sexy TMI Tuesday 28th March 2017

 

Sexy TMI

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Sexy TMI Tuesday – What question about sex do you find hard to ask your partner?

That’s a difficult one as we are very honest with each other about sex and our desires.  We talk to each other about the fantasies we devise in our imaginations which often involves a third person participating along with us in our sexual activities – nobody particular. Personally I am happy to keep this as a imaginary fantasy but I suspect my man would like to bring it into our reality if I were to encourage it and we knew a suitable person. As far as I am concerned we don’t know a suitable person and never will. So I would find it hard to ask him where he actually stands on this issue in case its something he really does desire.

Sexy TMI Tuesday – What about sex do you find hard to ask anyone? Continue reading Sexy it is! On Sexy TMI Tuesday 28th March 2017

Queen of Hearts, the Magician, and the three card trick.

I’m the Queen of Hearts, he is the Magician

Queen of Hearts, the Magician, and the three card trick.
(Or the Story of Me and Him)

Three of Hearts
I opened the door, you stood there looking beautiful, all shiny and new
You looked at me, smiled, my heart swelled and I began to shine too
We talked about evolution, troubles in life, past loves and heartbreak
Together we were not sure what we had, but we recognised it wasn’t fake
I said see you soon, you walked away, in the blink of an eye, 17 years flew by.

Two of Hearts
We sat opposite, under the umbrella, laughed, brushed lips and drank wine
You were so sure, with me just glancing at you and thinking you were fine.
We held each other close, hearts beating fast, and danced with words of tomorrow
The reality proved different and showered us with pain and sorrow
I said see you soon, you walked away, in the tear from an eye, 3 years flew by

Ace of Hearts
Finally, the present has arrived wrapped up in love and delicious sin
Our life and hearts are overflowing with each day; our souls are akin
This time was always waiting, I believe that when I look at your face
Every day, every hour, every minute I spend with you are moments of Grace
Last thing in the eve, our bodies entwine, in the blink of an eye, night flies by Continue reading Queen of Hearts, the Magician, and the three card trick.