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Shame, TMI Tuesday 20th June 2017

SHAMEHow much can you bear?

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Shame on TMI Tuesday

Tell us a sexual thing/fantasy you would never want your friends to know you like or have done?

As far as most of my friends are concerned I wouldn’t like them to know that I get a kick out of bondage. Also one activity I have kept pretty quiet about over the years is that I once had the “golden shower” experience. You will be able to read about it sometime over the next few months on my sister blog which looks back 20 years ago to precisely the golden era. My friends would be horrified if I ever told them about that.  A couple of them even seemed shocked that I have enjoyed anal sex in the past.

 

Has anyone ever found an item of sexy underwear, a sex toy or perhaps a picture on your phone that embarrassed you?

When I was about 17 I was still living with my Mum. I used to often take my diary in the bathroom with me to write or read after I had bathed. One time I discovered that I had left it in there, in full view, for a whole day. I felt very embarrassed as even at that age my diaries were very explicit.  I was involved in my first sexual relationship. My boyfriend was very explorative where sex was concerned and the thought that my Mum or step father may have read about our exploits horrified me. I think I walked around blushing for the following week!

 

Do you have any fantasies you could never go through with because you think you would feel ashamed?

That’s a difficult one. I often fantasise about a MMF threesome but have not investigated it further – not because I may feel ashamed but because I am not sure in reality if the experience would be what I am after from sexual pleasure.

 

Have you ever felt shame after a sexual experience?

Yes, too often in the past. Let’s just say I was sexualised early in life and that seemed to mar many of my sexual relationships. After a short while, into a relationship, I would just start feeling dirty after any sex really. This reaction led to me feeling ashamed. I will be discussing this over on Before May Mattered, as at that time I began to recognise a pattern in my sexual behaviour and began to look for answers. It’s been a long haul though.

Incidentally I never felt any shame regarding the golden showers!

 

Bonus:  Share a recent non-sexual moment of SHAME

I really can’t think of any concrete recent moments of shame. Sometimes I can be pretty moody and because of that can behave badly at home. I have done that more than once over the last month. Afterwards I often feel a little embarrassed – I think 😉

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Multiple Wet Dreams – did you ever?

Multiple Wet Dreams – what a delight

I felt extremely horny. The date with Ashley had left me feeling as hot as hell. He was very good looking with such a fit body. Yet when it came down to sex he just could not deliver.  Now alone in my bed I licked my fingers and put my hands between my legs. Finding my clitoris I began to rhythmically rub it – thrusting my pelvis upwards. I had him in my mind’s eye, the way he looked, but now he was passionately thrusting his cock into me while staring assiduously into my eyes. They were shut as I began to cum. Bloody hell it was such a relief. I needed it so badly. Then something strange happened – I kept rubbing to gently complete the orgasm when I felt my body go into a second climatic spasm! I rolled along with it, eventually becoming still on my bed, exhausted. Continue reading Multiple Wet Dreams – did you ever?

Sexual Behaviour is a Choice

 

Sexual Behaviour is a choice
Sexual Behaviour is a matter of choice

Over on my sister blog, Before May Mattered, I have just posted the next diary instalment. These diaries are real. They were written some 20 years ago, knowing a lot less than I do now. In some ways my thoughts and ideas were already formed. For instance, I was cynical about the way the world operated regarding politics and the reasons for war. Even at such a young age I was correct where these beliefs were concerned. Continue reading Sexual Behaviour is simply a matter of Choice – Living Forwards

Effeminate Men Rocked the World in the 70’s

Effeminate guys were all around in the 1970’s.

From a very young age I can remember TV shows were rife with effeminate men. The spectacle of Marc Bolan gyrating around the stage in pink silk trousers that showed the form of his penis was a familiar image on children’s television. This vision was glamorous and (apart from the contours of his cock) non-threatening. I grew up learning to love the look of such men- the way they moved and personified confidence; almost as if they were defying traditional sexual boundaries, but doing it in an incredibly sexy way.
Continue reading Effeminate Men Rocked the World in the 70’s

Smells of Men. The Past Smells of Men. Before May Mattered

 

The Past Smells of Men

Past smells of men
Past smells of men

 

The sense of smell is an amazing thing.  I have always known it is one of my strongest senses and on occasions, where men are concerned, it has overridden my moral judgement. I believe some perfumes/colognes are laced with artificial pheromones which could be a reason for choosing to wear them. Personally I think there is nothing like the natural smell of a clean guy. Everybody has their own unique odour, which is masked by perfumes. Often it will be sometime before you actually know what your new lover really smells like. Continue reading Smells of Men. The Past Smells of Men. Before May Mattered

SWINGING FUN – Three is definitely not a crowd

Swinging Fun

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Wife Swap – Swinging Fun

Swinging Fun – Would you give it a try?

My sexual needs are somewhat deviant but I have never been involved in a threesome or group sexual activity. I suppose I have been a serial monogamist – somebody who jumps from one long-term monogamous relationship to another, usually making the break when sex within the pairing has become stale or boring. Towards the end of a lengthy relationship I would invariably become so horny I would cheat on my partner. The nearest I came to having sex with more than one person was sleeping with two men on the same day but at a different time – and unbeknown to each other.

The fact that I haven’t participated in a threesome does not mean that the idea doesn’t sexually excite me, it also intrigues me. Continue reading SWINGING FUN – Three is definitely not a crowd

Anal Play, Anal Sex, Butt Plug Exploration

Anal Play and Penetration

Anal Play

 

There are two things I know about anal sex. The first is that nearly every male whether they are heterosexual, bisexual or homosexual, have a fascination with it. The second thing is that anybody who receives anal intercourse and anal play in general, should be careful regarding how the act is carried out, following necessary precautions or advice to ensure that your anal cavity is not harmed in anyway. Continue reading Anal Play, Anal Sex, Butt Plug Exploration

Naked truth exposed – smooth and tender

naked truth

Naked Truth

There are numerous tasks or activities that can strengthen a couple’s bond. Things they share or do together – things that would be missed if they stopped. Of course there are sexual acts ranging from normal to kinky or even deviant, and household duties – the supermarket shop or cooking a meal together. All these might make you feel more attached to your partner due to the security that ritual provides.


What do you do for your partner or together that your friends might find intriguing?


One thing I enjoy doing for my man is running him a bath with coconut oil, candle light and a cocktail.

Here is the naked truth –

One thing my man enjoys doing for me is shaving my cunt. Continue reading Naked truth exposed – smooth and tender

Queen of Hearts, the Magician, and the three card trick.

I’m the Queen of Hearts, he is the Magician

Queen of Hearts, the Magician, and the three card trick.
(Or the Story of Me and Him)

Three of Hearts
I opened the door, you stood there looking beautiful, all shiny and new
You looked at me, smiled, my heart swelled and I began to shine too
We talked about evolution, troubles in life, past loves and heartbreak
Together we were not sure what we had, but we recognised it wasn’t fake
I said see you soon, you walked away, in the blink of an eye, 17 years flew by.

Two of Hearts
We sat opposite, under the umbrella, laughed, brushed lips and drank wine
You were so sure, with me just glancing at you and thinking you were fine.
We held each other close, hearts beating fast, and danced with words of tomorrow
The reality proved different and showered us with pain and sorrow
I said see you soon, you walked away, in the tear from an eye, 3 years flew by

Ace of Hearts
Finally, the present has arrived wrapped up in love and delicious sin
Our life and hearts are overflowing with each day; our souls are akin
This time was always waiting, I believe that when I look at your face
Every day, every hour, every minute I spend with you are moments of Grace
Last thing in the eve, our bodies entwine, in the blink of an eye, night flies by Continue reading Queen of Hearts, the Magician, and the three card trick.