When I first saw the prompt for Wicked Wednesday – Impulsive – I actually said to Marie it was made for me.
Am I impulsive?
That is because I have always considered my self impulsive in some way. Viewed it as part of my personality. But I looked up the actual definition of impulsive in the Cambridge dictionary…
showing behaviour in which you do things suddenly without any planning and without considering the effects they may have.
Then I realised that perhaps the word impulsive is not actually completely correct when describing a particular trait of mine. Don’t get me wrong I do occasionally have my sheer impulsive moments, usually when I am angry and can’t process that emotion. Then I think that I will always feel this way. It is as if I can’t put a distance between myself and the way I am feeling so I behave in an impulsive manner.
Last year I really began to recognise this behaviour pattern and vowed to try better as the outcome of such conduct is not advantageous for anybody.
Acting with out fear ~ On Impulse
I think the phrase that applies to me better is
Doing things without fear or proper thought
And this seems to be what acting on impulse is all about – according to the Cambridge dictionary –
Acting on impulse – A sudden wish to do something
That’s me! I have those wishes aplenty!
There are many times in my life when I have had that kind of feeling – and it made me – well – do something! I will add impulsive behaviour in general reeks of bad things but some good things have come from my sudden wish to do something.
With these things a matter of hours passed by before the ideas were being discussed with others. They were planned after and many enjoyed/are enjoying my original acts of impulse.
These would been seen as positive impulses.
I do believe that I have committed a few negative acts of impulse where I certainly thought with my heart and did not consider what would happen next.
‘I do’ becomes ‘I won’t’
One situation I am not at all proud of was when I jilted the eventual father of my kids. I realised I still had strong feelings for Vic so decided I would be behaving in a dishonest way if I went through with the ceremony. Although we stayed together for some time after, my decision did damage our relationship.
One Night Stand
This act of inpulse could have turned out very nastily if the guy had not been so understanding. I mean come on, me and this man were having full blown intercourse and I asked him to stop and pull out. It taught me to never go home with someone on the first date!
Meeting my birth family as a young adult was an amazing experience. However, I was not expecting to feel sexually attracted to one of my half siblings. Even though it was clear he felt the same we were sensible enough not to act on this. But something I am quite surprised I did act on – in the moment – was a golden showers experience. Read about both of these here…
When I was still a child I ran away on the spur of the moment. No planning. I was obviously having problems in my life at the time but I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I simply was trying to remove myself from the situation.
We are taught that the teacher is always right. Here is one time when I was a mere teen but actually put brain into gear and said ‘no’ to the teacher!
Acting on impulse is often viewed as a negative trait. When the actions hurt others unnecessarily in some way then I agree with this. But I do feel there is nothing at all wrong with occasionally taking immediate action on how you feel, taking a few risks and going for what you want. Who knows what great times will be had?