What is a Drug?
Drugs come in all forms – I know that now. Alcohol is one for sure and I drink too much. I enjoy a couple of cups of coffee a day. It’s addictive. I also adore chillies, they provide such a buzz I feel they must be a drug.
Chillies are also very healthy. The high I get when consuming the very hot ones is not laden with the thought that I am doing something illegal. Marijuana is illegal but I do view it as a natural plant, like chillies. It’s all the synthetic, man-made concoctions I really don’t like.
Early Days With Drugs
When I was 18 I first tried marijuana. Not being a smoker, it never really had much of an effect. Guys would do a blowback – chance for them to put their lips on mine and fire the smoke down my throat. That was OK. A few years later my flatmate made some cookies – explaining it was a better way to get high. Well, it worked. Losing a complete hour of my life, where apparently I propositioned a co-worker and behaved like a slut before crashing out.
Vic and I were a couple at that time. He worked in the music industry so we were always at some party or other with joints being passed around. I just said no but continued to knock back copious amounts of booze. Nero pointed out that years ago the hard drugs were not so much on display as now, and I agree. There were people inside rooms or bathrooms doing the hard stuff not out in public. Vic and I were in love and had always, since teenagers, done everything together. So with me a little scared of the chemical mixes we steered clear, he was always rolling a joint though.
A mutual friend got hold of some LSD. Vic wanted to try it and asked me to give it a go. I was up for it initially, thinking myself very grown up. We arrived at the guy’s pad at the allotted time. He was not in. We waited for about 40 mins with no joy so went to the pub instead. The next day he called explaining the delay and we were welcome that evening. Something in my head clicked and I refused to go. Vic went and it was the start of his love-affair with mind-altering drugs that has been his longest relationship to date.
It was inevitable that after that first time he began to score at work too. Soon I was not keen on the parties. We split up but we have remained friends to this day. Every so often he tells me he still loves me, and because he knows I care about him, talks about the amount of Coke he still takes. I think he likes to see the concern on my face.
Drugs and My Children
As mentioned it does seem to be thrust in the youngsters faces far more than it was when I was an innocent. And I don’t think the drugs they buy today are as pure as some of the substances that were around years ago. I have a very open relationship with my children(both young adults), and am aware they have taken hard drugs. This never surprised me as I remember when they were small, I was with their father, and he would go out to a club once a month or so and get off his head on MDMA. He was not allowed home until the following day.
My man has spoken to my kids about what they have taken, with a no holds barred attitude – to try to keep them safe by providing them with knowledge. We have both spoken to them about the harm drugs can cause a person, physically, emotionally and mentally. By gaining their trust open discussion on the topic occurred frequently, and I am pleased to say that they have both chosen not to use them any more – grown out of them perhaps. I wonder how Nero would feel about his 16-year-old daughter taking drugs?
My Man and Drugs
I am happy for my man to advice my children on this matter as when young he was in a band, and literally tried every drug you could name before the age of 30. Agreeing that the drugs bought years ago were less laced with extras – and that is the worry, what actually is contained in the add-ons nowadays. He remembers a time when even the people who sold the drugs seemed more responsible than the situations you hear about today. The manager of his band was older and wiser teaching them a lot about different drugs, consequently, he became savvy in this area.
He has not taken any chemical compounds for many years. What he could do with is cannabis oil, on prescription, for the Lyme disease. Cannabis leaves help with pain and other symptoms to some extent. The oil is known to work even better. A misdiagnosis of MS would have meant he’d be able to pop down to the local chemist and pick it up.
There you have it, my total lack of history where hard drugs are concerned. Please excuse me if I have referred to terms incorrectly – I really am not that well versed on the subject. Looking back I don’t think I was trying to be Miss Goody-Two-Shoes. Being genuinely scared at the lack of control drugs could induce and felt/feel far more comfortable drinking alcohol – but do admit this is also an addictive substance.