True post, inspired by this Quote ~ “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” – Anais Nin
Prophecy
As a young woman, a clairvoyant once told me she saw me as a tree kept in a greenhouse. She said one day my branches would break the glass and I’d be free, to grow and bloom.
History
Men have always been drawn to me. Never a time when they weren’t. Then, they’d box me up and throw a ribbon around the confines. This was partly my own fault as I allowed it to happen.
Tapping on the Glass
My branches really did start tapping on the glass. I cracked a pane or two. But he would simply apply a new sleeve of glass or tape the shreds together in an attempt to mend the cracks.
Pain
The pain inside grew and fed my bough. Eventually, doubled over in the small space I could bear it no longer and smashed the greenhouse completely.
Reality is Present
Just home from work, heart pounding, I go up to my daughters room. She hasn’t been there for months. Studying at University. There is no need for me to remain. I grab a small case from the wardrobe. I packed it weeks ago. Just waiting till it was my time. Until I was willing to risk again.
Returning downstairs I walk into the sitting room knowing where he will be sitting.
“I am Leaving.” I swallow back the saliva that has gathered in my mouth and lick my dry lips.
He smiles. I can tell he doesn’t believe it.
I walk out to the car, fire up the engine and I’m gone.
New beginnings
Breaking out the greenhouse left scars. Glass. It’s bound to happen. But as time went on a new life emerged. My roots were allowed to spread and grow.
Everything blossomed. Love, sex, work, life.
Sometimes you need to risk before you can grow…
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Awww, May….this is beautiful. I love how you’ve written it in poetic vignettes that all come together to tell your story. And I’m glad you risked, and that the risk led to a new and better life.
Ah thanks Brigit – just happened like that when I thought of the prompt 😉
This was a great piece, I love the analogy and its fascinating that it came from a prediction.
I am glad you had the strength, the impetus to leave because you have blossomed into a force to be reckoned with.
That is a lovely thing to say Posy – strength comes from within and stuff that happens can make you stronger. For years I kept making the same mistakes duh 😉 x
And yet now you are free you still enjoy being bound and spanked! Life is weird, innit?
Consent is the popular word of the day and fits nicely here 😉 and he never tries to bind my mind …
Your risk paid off in dividends for you. Definitely a good to risk to take
Absolutely Beautiful. I love how you approached this piece and I’m happy you’ve blooming, blossoming, and spreading wide.
Thanks Lexy – If i hadn’t have left I would never have blogged and that would have been such a pleasure missed x